Let them in. Let them see. Hold this up to light. Watch as the filth is washed clean. Watch as a heart of stone becomes a heart of flesh.
Weakness threatens to destroy when really what power can come from weakness.
Such anger ripping and tearing the fabric of relationship. Expectations unmet and desires unfulfilled. Judgement and bitterness destructively breaking hearts. Selfishness overshadowing love. Hands clenched, unwilling to surrender; suffocating death grip. Joy stealing comparison. Grief stricken sorrow questioning Goodness and Faithfulness. Pain searing heartbreak. Death. Fear filled prisoner. Shame filled disgust. Self-hatred and lust.
My heart wrestles. My heart hurts. Overwhelming amounts of emotion weighing me down; feeling so stuck in this hard, hurting place. Not wanting to be a burden to man, I hide. But it’s in hiding that I find life. Because what may be a burden to man, is light in the hands of God.
Naked and exposed. Grief filled weeping at His feet. Silent whispers of His promises. Declarations of faith to rise above the deafening lies. Morning devotions that become lifelines for the day. Tear stained pages as I write out my hearts plead for help. Praise filled surrender. Trust strengthened. Joy filled sorrow of what used to be, but looking ahead to the hope that is in Jesus. Redeemable messes. Wounds that heal. Grace that overflows. A love like no other.
And then I emerge. Mending still in process, yet just strong enough to endure out of hiding. Bold enough to love on others in their own suffering; ripe enough to empathize. Weakness that meant to kill, only grew love stronger when tested by the flames.
From death comes life.
“But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold” (Job 23:10).
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ” (2 Corinthians 1:3-5).
Your pain is not in vain. There is a life giving message to be experienced in this season. Don’t miss it. Grab hold of it, fight for it. Demand the blessings. Declare His promises. Do not give up. You can rise from the ashes. New life can emerge.
God Bless you,
Love,
theblessingsgirl
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